SKEPTICISM

I GOT THE PHOTO HERE

this scene is very similar when my lola and lolo were still on earth. my lola was sick then. she always had tantrums (due to old age) and quarrel my lolo like a little child. my lolo built a small hut just to avoid the fight but still would

always visit her once in while to check her condition. my lola, without my lolo's presence, searched for him all the time. she she'd still had tantrums, obviously seeking for his presence.

when countdown of my lola's last few days started, my lolo left his hut and stayed with her. he fed her, watched her and took very good care of her. my lolo knew that her last days were coming. i remember he told my mom "dili na madala" (she's not gonna make it). his voice was hopeless. i was skeptic. we were skeptic. we knew our lola was strong. but he was right. if im not mistaken, my lola left 2 or 3 days after he said those words. 

my lolo loved my lola genuinely. he is an inspiration.

i love this photo.. reminds me of them.

hypocrisy

hypocrisy 

he took his cellphone. he showed me a photo of a naked woman lying on bed shot from his phone camera. he said that was one of his girlfriends. i said "ahhh ok". he seemed like he was not satisfied my reaction, he open another file from his cellphone and opened another photo of that same woman. but this time he was with it, on the bed with nothing on. (this is one of the douchiest thing that i have encountered on a person). i said "you are crazy". he replied, "well, that's me. I am a man". then, he opened another file form his cellphone and showed me a video of his wife naked. they were having a conversation in the video, not sex. i did not take interest on it. (it was such a douche thing.) My mind was disgusted by the situation. again, i responded, "crazy!", trying to sound like i was interested. he replied again, "crazy? I'm a man". "OK" i said. he continued by show more pictures of different woman on his cell phone telling me that he would always hide his phone from his wife. such a douchebag.

he loves to tells stories about him having 4 sex partners every time he travels. he says that he would have a girlfriend then would dump them after he gets tired then would look for another girlfriend. then excuses himself, "because, I'm a man". (fucking lame alibi) he would also say how tiring his day was because he had to meet his girlfriend and tried to make excuses from his wife. he brags about this stuffs almost everyday.(by the way, he recently got married) he keeps on telling me this almost everyday, as if he is trying to proclaim to the world that he is a man, a real man. somehow i find it overly said which make me think they are all fabricated.. or even lies. or maybe we is just trying to convince himself that he is a real man because he has not proven it yet.

the next day, we had this weird conversation. he tried to convince me that i am wrong.  he tried to make an argument. he was trying to explain that i believing 'it' it will be for my own good. "who are you going to call on to if you are on your deathbed?" he asked with conviction. i said "i don't know..and i don't care. i told you that i don't believe in religion."  then he kept going on, trying to change my views. he said a lot of religious things that i already heard of... that i already got sick of. it was like as if I'm going to hell and he was so concerned about me burning. i was laughing inside. i replied "ahh ok" to the rest of the things he was saying to me.he said that he was just doing his responsibility as a Christian.he sounded like a holy man this time.

we continued walking and i listened and said nothing but "ok". i really didn't care what he was saying.i was just being nice so i listened. i didn't try to explain my side because people like him will never understand. i also wouldn't want to express my religious thoughts because i feel it would sound offensive to those who believe. i don't want any arguments especially about religious matters. And don't want to argue with this douchebag.

a hypocrite? or maybe just a pure douchbag. he probably was just making stories, trying to boost his ego which, for me, makes him looks like a total loser. i pity his wife. he bastardized his wife by showing a video and for me that was such an assholish thing to do. (come on, man! just a little respect to your newlywed wife) A hypocrite, shall i say.He bastardized his god too, as he did to his wife. and just so you know, he is an active follower of his church. so fucked up

i just don't understand why people have to prove something to other people.i don't  understand  why they brag abut something, or worse, lie about one's self just to try to be better than the other. i don't understand why they have ask other people to do something when in fact they themselves can't even stand when they believe in. try to prove something to me? what for? i don't even care. the only person that you need to prove something to is yourself.